Thursday, August 28, 2014


If you have found this site, you most likely have lost a baby or are losing one. I'm so very sorry. I hate that anyone would need the information on this site, but I pray that it is helpful to you.

I'm aware that quite a number of non-Orthodox people have accessed this site and found it helpful and that's good. It was never my intention to be exclusive about who is welcome here! Even if you don't share my faith, please do avail yourself of the rest of the site. The pages that are most specific to Orthodoxy are Prayers and Liturgics and the Touchstone article. The Actual Process is entirely medical in nature and the Photographs page is just that. In addition, while many of the stories are about Orthodox families, not all of them are. All of this is simply to say that you should be able to find what you need comfortably without feeling like I'm forcing my faith upon you.

This site is always going to be a work in progress as more parents add their stories and photographs. In addition I will add any relevant news items here on the main page under this post. If there is anything you think should be added here or any corrections you would like to make, again, feel free to email me.

May the most Holy Lady Theotokos, the Mother of God, comfort you in your grief, as she has comforted me in mine.

-Matushka A.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

New Additions: Thea's Twins

Thea has graciously shared the story of the pregnancy and miscarriage of her twins with us. She had a missed miscarriage - the babies died at about 6 weeks but she didn't find out until about three and a half weeks later. A week after that she went into labor and delivered them at home. There are very clear photographs on The Actual Process and Photographs pages showing the sacs and Thea's story is now on the Your Stories page. My sincere thanks to Thea for honoring her children this way.

May the memory of her twins be eternal!

Friday, August 8, 2014

Prayer for Unborn Infants

I found this beautiful prayer at the end of an Akathist to the Mother of God. I've added it to the prayers and liturgics page.

Prayer for Unborn Infants

Remember, O Lord, Lover of Mankind the souls of Thy departed servants, infants who died accidentally in the wombs of Orthodox mothers from unknown cause, either from difficult birth, or from some carelessness and who therefore did not receive the Mystery of Holy Baptism. Baptize them, O Lord, in the sea of Thy compassions, and save them by Thine inexpressible grace. Amen.

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Photos of Gabriel

I have added some photos of my child Gabriel to the Photographs page. I have not yet written his story. They include a photos of him in and out of the amniotic sac. He was a beautiful baby and I miss him terribly. May his memory be eternal!

Perfect little foot with five perfect little toes

Monday, June 9, 2014

Gabriel [updated]

Within a few weeks I will be adding yet another story and more photographs to this site. Although I've known since Friday, today it was confirmed that we have another baby waiting for us in heaven. Gabriel died at 10 weeks, 6 days. I am waiting to go into labor on my own. I will update when I am able.

Update: Gabriel was born 6-25-14 at 10:42 PM. I posted about it here. Eventually I'll write up the birth story and post it and photographs here. May Gabriel's memory be eternal!

Update #2: I posted some photos of Gabriel here.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Vicki's baby

I have just added a new story to the "Your Stories" page, that of Vicki's baby, Gabriel. Vicki tells her story with much love and detail. From finding out with great delight that she was expecting, to anticipating a miscarriage, then finding out all was well... only to hear the devastating news that they had lost the baby, she graciously shares her grief and her faith.

May Gabriel's memory be eternal!